Birthdays and the past, present and the future

I turned another year older a few days back.. my first birthday in Seattle. It is always a good celebration when one has friends to celebrate it with.But birthdays inevitably get me on a trip down the old dusty lanes I once walked.. but it also brings me to question myself - another year gone and what have I achieved this year that I hadn't earlier ? Did I make a difference in something or someone's life? Is this what I wanted to do? Am I happy? Are there answers to these questions? Does it make sense to visit these questions ??

Nostalgia is something that doesn't come to me often.. I tend to live in the moment and not worry too much about the past or contemplate about the future. I think that keeps it simple for me..I do not want to think too much and miss out on the things happening around me. But, sometimes I guess one needs to slow down and question what one is doing, with what ones' arrived here with and, what one has accrued over time.

But I still don't know if is there an answer to those questions. How do I decide what is the right decision? Whatever I reason, it is bound to be in the end - selfish. That would never get me the right conclusion, just me thinking in loops..

I feel theres no way to be impartial about these questions.. I think the best way is to give it your best shot and carry on from there.. where ever that takes me :)